Father, Please Help Me

Sometimes I'm so confused. I wonder how I've messed up, and how I can prevent myself from making the same mistakes. How do I choose one friend over another? Is it right for me to put one friend first/must I put one friend first? Relationships are so complicated. I don't understand. It didn't used to be this way. I didn't used to feel inadequate as a friend. Is it right for a friend to make another feel guilty? It's not like I do anything major--like today I chose to sit at the front when my friend was at the back. I'm more distracted in the back and I like the front, but my friend, my best friend, was having a bad day. And I wasn't there for her. When will I learn? How much of what I feel is conviction and how much is unjust guilt? What do I do?

God, I know you've blessed me with wonderful friends. And I need to trust You in all I do. Help me to understand the effect of my actions. I want to love them--I want to show Your love. I don't want to reject them or let them down. I know I'm not perfect, but you tell me to "Be perfect therefore, as your Heavenly Father is perfect." I know I can't do anything with my own strength--alone I wouldn't even exist. Please help me to rely on You and not lean on my own understanding--I really do not have any clue what's going on for the most part. Thank You for listening and always being there for me. Thank You for Your love, Father. You're so amazing.

God Bless,

Brianna