Marriage

I'm so excited! My cousin just got engaged! It hasn't even been like half of a day yet! Yay! I'm so happy for them! I can't believe that I get to share in this experience. She goes to school three hours away and was visiting with her "dating partner/boyfriend." He is so great. He has a personality similar to mine, one that likes things organized and enjoys thinking alot about different things. My cousin is like just the opposite. She is all active and outgoing, repeatedly arriving places late and enjoying talking to people. Not that I don't enjoy talking to people, it's just that talking to people drains my energy and it requires effort.

Well, this huge event in the life of my cousin caused me to stop and think. I wonder if such a day will ever happen to me. I know it's a long way away. I also know God knows if that day will take place, and if it will, exactly when and where and with who. I don't know. I have no idea, really. But I'm glad God knows. I'm glad God has a plan. If He didn't, I wouldn't be able to enjoy my cousin's excitement so much. I would be more worried about me and my future. That would be so selfish. I'm glad that I can look at this day as a source of expectancy. I can remember the joy and excitement, and know that someday, if it be God's will, this will also happen to me. I'm willing to wait. I have a "true love waits" ring on my left hand. It's my purity ring. I plan to keep it there on my left hand until the day, if it ever takes place, that it is replaced with and engagement ring. Only if it be God's will. My life is completely in His hands. For all I know, I could die tomorrow. For all I know, I could live for another 100 years. I'm glad that God knows what will happen and I don't have to worry. I can trust in Him.

He knows what the future will bring, and chooses which parts of the future to reveal to me now and what to save until later. He knows when I'm ready. One piece He has shown me, roughly two years and two months ago, was that in some way, shape, or form I will someday use sign language as a part of my job. I don't know how yet, but this is one part of God's plan for my life that He has shown me. I am glad for that. I know a lot of signs already, and sign while worshiping in church. It makes the worship real to me, I can see what I'm really saying. I have to consentrate on the words and what they mean in order to sign, in a way this fights against the part of my brain that wishes to drift off while singing the words.

God is good. He has a plan. I am really glad that he does. God is good all the time, and all the time God is good.

†God Bless†
Bria